Look, let me just say it: He was hot. A nonhot boy stares at you relentlessly and it is, at best, awkward and, at worst, a form of assault. But a hot boy . . . well.
Boys , they are just really stupid creatures created by god to annoy us girls yet we still want them , inevitably and we end up getting disappointed and hurt and much more annoyed then before when we didn't have them.
But I am at the point where I want him but it just seems so impossible to have him , to make him realize that if he doesn't stop all his steeling glances and weird eye contacts with his weird conversations with me that I would really end up saying something I shouldn't since he has a girlfriend. I cant be a home wrecker or something I just cant but he doesn't get that , does he? I need him to understand that and stop trying to charm me with those goofy grins.
Even though he is handsome and all but his image is of the have 'em leave 'em kind and his face really makes it difficult for girls to understand the fact that its best if that territory remains undiscovered. Even to me but I am not going to be one of those girls , I cant be that lame girl.
There is this odd thing that happens to me I only dream about guys I like and that is like my sign that I like the guy. I have been trying to avoid this stupid nagging feeling but yesterday seems to have confirmed my fears , turns out I really do like him damn! i wanted to get rid of dramas.But like they say there is no peace for the devil , seems like peace wont be something I am going to get.
I had the most amazing dream about 'him'. A regal ballroom with people dressed to the nines in beautiful gowns and classy tuxs and dancing to those amazingly romantic love songs and every couple out on the dance floor seems to be so mesmerized by each other and at first I was sitting alone but then he came and asked me to dance and dance we did! it was amazing my head on his shoulders his lips in my hair...... it was exhilarating.
Now what the hell am I supposed to do I hate all this emotion crap it makes me sick. It seems like when I try to get rid of something it seems to get way too attracted to me and comes running right back to me. For gods sake I need to do something , I think I'll just stop looking at his way and his stupid girlfriend. Yeah that seems like the right thing to do even if he is the cutest thing I have ever seen ,getting distracted again!
Or I could do something absolutely opposite since he is known to be such a player, so I've heard I could lead him on and then I could put him in his place from which he has flown to some upper land where apparently he thinks he rules. He needs to understand that his face and tactics can only get him som much. I could make him realize that he just cant get anyone he wants or anything he wants.That boy's personality might be charming as hell but his cocky attitude just need to mellow a few hundred times and I guess I could do that , anyway it wouldn't hurt that I have always wanted to do something as dramatic as this!
people if you are reading this I would love if you could give me some suggestions ,maybe? please :)
Boys , they are just really stupid creatures created by god to annoy us girls yet we still want them , inevitably and we end up getting disappointed and hurt and much more annoyed then before when we didn't have them.
But I am at the point where I want him but it just seems so impossible to have him , to make him realize that if he doesn't stop all his steeling glances and weird eye contacts with his weird conversations with me that I would really end up saying something I shouldn't since he has a girlfriend. I cant be a home wrecker or something I just cant but he doesn't get that , does he? I need him to understand that and stop trying to charm me with those goofy grins.
Even though he is handsome and all but his image is of the have 'em leave 'em kind and his face really makes it difficult for girls to understand the fact that its best if that territory remains undiscovered. Even to me but I am not going to be one of those girls , I cant be that lame girl.
There is this odd thing that happens to me I only dream about guys I like and that is like my sign that I like the guy. I have been trying to avoid this stupid nagging feeling but yesterday seems to have confirmed my fears , turns out I really do like him damn! i wanted to get rid of dramas.But like they say there is no peace for the devil , seems like peace wont be something I am going to get.
I had the most amazing dream about 'him'. A regal ballroom with people dressed to the nines in beautiful gowns and classy tuxs and dancing to those amazingly romantic love songs and every couple out on the dance floor seems to be so mesmerized by each other and at first I was sitting alone but then he came and asked me to dance and dance we did! it was amazing my head on his shoulders his lips in my hair...... it was exhilarating.
Now what the hell am I supposed to do I hate all this emotion crap it makes me sick. It seems like when I try to get rid of something it seems to get way too attracted to me and comes running right back to me. For gods sake I need to do something , I think I'll just stop looking at his way and his stupid girlfriend. Yeah that seems like the right thing to do even if he is the cutest thing I have ever seen ,getting distracted again!
Or I could do something absolutely opposite since he is known to be such a player, so I've heard I could lead him on and then I could put him in his place from which he has flown to some upper land where apparently he thinks he rules. He needs to understand that his face and tactics can only get him som much. I could make him realize that he just cant get anyone he wants or anything he wants.That boy's personality might be charming as hell but his cocky attitude just need to mellow a few hundred times and I guess I could do that , anyway it wouldn't hurt that I have always wanted to do something as dramatic as this!
people if you are reading this I would love if you could give me some suggestions ,maybe? please :)
